052311

Leehom Wang, Last night

Last night I watched you sleep as you lay there
I dropped to my knees and said a prayer
I leaned over softly to kiss your beautiful face
But I could not cross the ocean of your grace

The moonlight held you aloft, a picture of peace
The only sound was the soft breeze form the east
My heart beat down in my chest
To the rhythm of your gentle breath
And the whole world calmed down
For this moment of rest

Now I'm standing above you, trying so hard not
To tell you I love you
And all that I want in this world is you
If you'd only wake up
You'd know it was true

I love you can be so hard to say
Especially when it's meant in this strong way
But at this moment while you lie asleep
I am suddenly free
And my trembling arms reach out for you
As if you could see

Now I'm standing above you trying so hard not
To tell you I love you
And all that I want in this world is you
If you'd only wake up you'd know it was true
If you'd only wake up you'd know it was true
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    discontent discontent
052311

(no subject)

earth upon earth
separates me
from my sordid sun.

grey upon grey,
mercilessly bleak,
has become
my new star.

my precious blue sky,
where have you
gone?

your warmth
has all but vanished
from my bitter
fingertips.

the lack of color
skims my cheek
in his pathetic attempt
at affection.

o, what a loving star
my grey
has become.
052311

(no subject)

Where were you at 11:45 today?
In bed... er, futon?

Is the person you like older or younger than you?
Older, but not by much.

When was the last time you saw the last person you kissed?
Just today.

Ever talked to someone that was high?
zomg no das bad 4 u

How tall is the person you like? Shorter or taller?
A lot taller.

Did you have a dream last night?
Yes, haha... ha.

Last text message you sent?
"But when your friend's fucked and really needs you...?"

Last comment you left someone?
I believe it was pertaining to my full tummy.

Do you have a Facebook?
Shit, my grandma has a facebook. Well, not really, but most grandmas do.

What color is your underwear?
Black like my soul.

Last person you were in the car with besides your family?
John.

Do you own a polo?
I own one.

Are you currently frustrated with a boy or girl?
Eh.

Are you excited for winter?
Not necessarily for winter itself, but for all the money I'm gonna be making. And moving out of my parents' house again.

If it was free and it would work perfectly, would you get plastic surgery?
I like my face and my body, so that would be pretty silly, wouldn't it?

Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
O ya.

Have you ever been called Prince or Princess?
If the shoe fits. (:0

What did you do last night?
Worked and watched TV. My life's crazy eventful these days.

Who is ONE person you wish you hadn’t dated?
Eh, I don't really have any. Shit happens.

What do you hear right now?
If You're Feeling Sinister

What is the closest thing to you that is blue?
The binder that my laptop is resting on.

If you had to change your eye color, would you? What would it be?
Naw.

Last time someone of the same sex hit on you?
Ugh, don't get me started. I like girls and I'll generally hit it whether a girl's my type or not (does this make me sound bad?), but there are limits...

Last thing you wrote your name on?
Server test.

Who do you want to kiss right now?


Does it snow where you live?
Yap.

If you could change one thing right now, what would it be?
My living situation, more than likely.

Are you in love?
Siiiiigh, unfortunately.

When is the next time you will see your grandma?
Hopefully never, lol.

Are you lying to yourself about something?
Hm, no. Generally when I'm lying to myself, I'm fairly aware of it and I keep it that way for a reason.

Did you ever waste too much time on a someone that treated you badly?
Shit happens, brah.

Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?
Yep.

Have you chewed gum after someone else already chewed it?
Yeah, why not?

Do you need to say anything to anyone?
Eh, yeah. /:

Do you like anyone?
A few choice people.

Anything happen to you within the past month that has made you really angry?
Mmmmhm.

Is there someone who instantly makes you smile when they send you a message?
No.

What’s your mood right now?
Is hungry a mood?

Think back to yesterday, what were you doing around this time?
Working. /wrists

Last place you went out to eat?
Sixth & Pine.

Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
I would like to get my nose pierced when I have some money.

Have you realized anything lately?
Alwayz.

Were you in a good mood last night?
Not particularly. I was too exhausted to be in a good mood for any reason.

What were you doing at 7:45AM this morning?
Sleeping! What kind of an asshole do I look like?

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
I guess.

Are you listening to music right now?
Why, yes I am.

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
I prefer chilly weather.

Were you happy when you woke up?
Uh, no. I'm always pretty miserable when I wake up; I value sleep too much.

Do you plan on moving out in the next year?
O yea.

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
Yessss.

When is the last time you took a nap?
It's been too long.

First person to speak to you in ‘11?
Bret, Mike Elliott, his girlfriend at the time, Jesse Dictor.

Do you think you are capable to last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?
If on the off chance I actually give a fuck about the person I'm in said relationship with.

Are you a fast typer?
(;

Do you prefer being in an actual relationship, or would you rather have the freedom of a ‘friend’s with benefits’ type deal?
Depends on the person.

Do you like your life?
It's all right sometimes.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Lolz

Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
Whatev. .

What color are your eyes?
Brown. Not "a golden brown with deep hues of chestnut and specks of blah blah fucking blah." Just brown.

Would you ever sky dive?
Noooooooooooooooooo.

Do you like Red Bull?
I like any caffeinated drink!

Who is in your default picture with you?
Das all me, girl.

How many televisions are in your house?
Iunno and I certainly don't feel like taking time out of my life to figure out.

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right-handed.

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
Oof, if it wouldn't kill me, yeah.

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
Zero.

Missing someone?
x:

Do you own a digital camera?
I'm not made of money, bitch.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Yes.

Do you have any tattoos/​piercings?​
I have a few of those. I'm just too damn cool for my own good, ya know?

Had someone sing to you?
Yeahhh.

Do you like to cuddle?
Of course!

Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
Friends? Good joke not.
  • Current Music
    The Boy Done Wrong Again, Belle and Sebastian
052311

(no subject)

I hate that look that's on your face when I say I'd rather be alone. I don't get why you'd wanna be with me, anyway, so I'll show you to the door. I'm sorry that I treat you like shit, but I can't say that I'm sorry to give you away.
  • Current Music
    I Just Wanna Watch LOTR, Heart Eyes
052311

(no subject)

To all of you motherfuckers who join together like a band of fucking rodents in the living room of my motherfucking house:

Firstly, that's why ya girl got nasty ass, day old snapple thrown all over her and her whore outfit.

Secondly, if any one of you pussy ass fucks decides to randomly grow a set of balls - YOU KNOW WHERE I LIVE. I'm sure you're also aware of my bedroom's whereabouts (in my motherfucking house). Please feel free to knock on my door at any time, and please do request to speak with me - any complaints, comments about my outfit, my mannerisms, my facial expression, etc - I will gladly listen to and respond to it all! For free, no less.

Until then, all of you fucks will continue to have my insults - and snapple/moldy iced coffe/pizza/whatever else I feel is fitting for your nonsense - hurled at you. If you have a problem with that, then man the fuck up and let's handle any issue you have like grown-ups instead of this childish bull shit I feel you've forced me to resort to.

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052311

I cant find my composition book, soo...

Ever since Wednesday, the uneasy feeling has decided to continue on with its unwelcome hindrance, quite uncomfortably planted in the deepest pits of my stomach. At the same time, I guess it's almost consolling - knowing the way things are going to work out, or not work out, sometime in the very near future.

Does this ugly prospect frighten me? Yes. Does it grieve me? Yes. But that's life for you. I'll figure things out somehow, or they'll figure themselves out - they always do. It's not the end of the world; the ending of something that was once beautiful and pure and blissful but has now become grotesque, unsightly, and painful: that's the reality of this situation. These things happen. Lord knows this has happened to me enough to not completely lose myself.

I'm not saying that I've given up just yet. I am willing to try for a little while longer, to test these new waters I've suddenly found myself thrust into. But what I am saying is this: if I catch myself feeling uneasy, generally overwhelmed or anxious, then I will know that that's it, and the time will have come to begin a new chapter in my life.

I am completely prepared for it, and if that day comes, rather than face it with my head cast down in defeat, I will embrace it with outstretched arms, full of hope, welcoming the new path that has so kindly opened itself up to me.

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